In a way, I didn't really know what hit me till it happened. Everything had been going on well, and I was upbeat and generally happy. In fact, I had just gotten a new work assignment and was excited about it.
Then, WHAM! One after another, the attacks came....what if I couldn't handle the new work? What if I didn't like my new colleagues, or they didn't like me? True, there were many adjustments I had to make - to new work systems, new materials, new time schedules and many new people. Yet, all these didn't seem to me to be too much to handle, yet when the attacks came, I felt them badly.
I was shaken. I was shocked. I was unhappy, confused and plagued by countless doubts. All of a sudden, I began to question myself. What had I done? What was I doing? Did I know what I was doing? What directions were I supposed to take? Where was God in all of this?!
Thankfully, all my time spent reading devotionals and the great and encouraging writings of Kenneth Hagin, Kenneth Hagin Junior, Joel Osteen, Pastor Prince, Pastor Rony, and many others, and of course, the Bible has taught me that even when you feel that God was not listening, you should still trust that He's with you. And so I continued to pray and give thanks and claim His wonderful promises of peace, strength and wisdom.
I also enlisted the help of a few friends to pray for me. I use the word 'enlisted' for a purpose. These friends were with me engaging in spiritual battle for me.
I'm thankful that things have turned for the better now. I remember Pastor Benny Ho and Pastor Joseph Prince mentioning before that with God, we always have happy endings! If things still didn't feel right, we should not worry - the whole problem was still being worked out and would come to pass, and God and us will prevail! We must not forget that we are fighting from a point of victory. We are not fighting for victory as VICTORY has already been won by Christ at Calvary! Hallelujah!
The following are some scriptural verses that I clung desperately to and I still continue to claim them by faith:
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
2 Timothy 1:7
New King James Version (NKJV)
English Standard Version (ESV)
You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
New International Version (NIV)