So, when the Holy Spirit recently convicted me of having the love of money, I was taken aback at first.
1 Timothy 6:10New International Version (NIV)
For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil.
Me? Have the love of money? How is that possible?
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Then, it dawned on me that perhaps, unconsciously, I was loving money, but not in that obvious greed is good manner. What had happened, and how it happened was more subtle, and hence I needed that wake-up call by the Holy Spirit.
A few months back, I switched from having a full-time job to a part-time position. While I knew that there would be a reduction in income, I guess I was not really all that prepared for it. So, what happened was that I began to take on a few part-time positions, wishing to make-up for the previous income. I also became more conscious of how much my work and my time was worth, which is not always a healthy thing. In doing so, I kind of forgot why I had decided to switch to part-time work in the first place.
Then, recently, for a few days consecutively, I started getting messages - bible readings, faith books, daily devotional messages on how the love of money is the root of all evil, and the importance of seeking Him first.
Initially, I glossed over the message. Ya, ya, ya, I know that the love of money is the root of all evil... and we need to seek Him first.
I have heard all that before. Besides, was I one who loved money? Generous ol' me? The one who blesses others with my blessings?
Then, it hit me.
I had been seeking opportunities on my own, trying to do it all and make it all through my own effort and hard work. Yet, Christ has told us that when we seek Him first and His righteousness and remember that He has done it all for us, He will add everything else - blessings, wisdom, peace, prosperity... to us!
Praise and thank God for His grace and love. I have decided to rest upon Him and put Him first and rest in His peace and assurance of an abundant life. I still believe in being blessed to be a blessing to others.
And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that having all sufficiency in all things at all times you may abound in every good work. As it is written, ‘He has distributed freely, he has given to the poor; his righteousness endures forever.’ He who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will supply and multiply your seed for sowing and increase the harvest of your righteousness. You will be enriched in every way to be generous in every way, which through us will produce thanksgiving to God.”
II Corinthians 9:8-12 (ESV)